I prefer old pain to new pain.
Let me explain to you what I mean. Last night after I had returned from class I was lying in my bed when all of a sudden this sharp pain appeared on my left side. After several minutes of trying several things and nothing helping I asked Christopher to just put his hand on my side and it helped almost all the pain go away. At least it's tolerable now. It's just to a two inch radius instead of my whole side.
After getting the majority of the pain to go away something dawned on me. I would rather have old pain than new pain. Why? Because old or chronic pain is consistent. And to you that may make you think "Yeah. That sounds like the worst part. That it never goes away." But to me the day in and day out of being in pain is easier for me to manage. I know when an activity will be too much, and I know when I've overdone it. I know exactly what to do, how much medicine to take and how long it will take me to recover from my everyday pain.
New pain..... not so much. Because I've never experienced it before I don't know how exactly to treat it. I don't know how long it's gonna last. And I don't know how much medicine I'll have to take. It's all unknown and that's scary.
So, if I have to choose, I'd say here's to the old pain! Thanks for being faithful.
